May 7th, 2012

i miss the mountains.

i miss the beauty of it all, how everything, no matter how horrible or tragic, was absolutely beautiful in the most wonderful sense. i miss the insanity of it all, the mountains. i miss the moutains most of all. 

i miss the mountains constantly reminding me there were things so much larger than i was, things so much more massive than life.

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May 7th, 2012

its six am here and all i want is to thank you.

thank you, for letting me go. thank you, for letting me realize how tragic my life really was, how awful of a person i had become, throwing my friends away and living a life threaded from passion and superficial love.

i just want to talk to you thats all, tell you how grateful i am. tell you that you were right for once, to tell you that you’d finally repaid me for all the glorious things i had done for you. you let me go, the greatest gift, you gave me freedom. something i had desired for so long, freedom, to do what ever i wanted in this world. to have every opportunity to do whatever i wanted, you gave it to me. you gave me my life back, you gave me the love for myself back, something i had needed for so long. you gave me a family, and friends.

i miss you, a lot. i don’t want to be with you but i miss your presence, and that still hurts. i hate how i’m so far away and i can’t even have a friendship with you. i don’t want to be with you, but the memories are still nice. i don’t want to be with you, but the memories are all i have.

i don’t want to be with you, but i wish you were still a part of my life. 

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i believe that happiness is one of the most common misconceptions a human can have. humanity believes in the falsity that one day they’re going to wake up, and be happy. just like that. they’re on this “road to happiness” and that in the future, life will get a little bit easier… all the bad things that are happening to them now are just simply a part of the journey. the journey to what? the road to what? a perfect future? well, happiness isn’t a goddamn destination. newsflash, you’re going to be dealing with shit every day of your life, no matter the situation, no matter how well you’re doing in school, or how in love you are, or how big your house is. 

happiness isn’t a destination. happiness is the journey itself. it’s about finding the beauty in the darkness. happiness is appreciating the magnificence of a sunset after your grandfather has just passed. happiness is the first tulips blooming after a harsh winter. happiness is the smell of orange blossoms when your riding your bike to your friend’s house. happiness is your heartbeat during a first kiss. happiness is the reflection of the moon on the ocean. happiness is watching your child take it’s first steps.

happiness is simply waking up in the morning, and being apart of life.

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Anonymous asked: Dear Heart, What happened to you on September 10th? My heart is breaking for you...

On that day my step dad decided life was too difficult. 

Hi tumblr! :)

I haven’t been writing much lately, but that’s because I’ve literally been SO busy that I literally don’t have much time too write! :( 

Anyways,

These next few weeks will be the most important weeks of my entire life - the end of Junior Year. I have to take AP exams, SAT’s, ACT’s, and get my grades up as high as possible to raise my GPA in order for colleges to take me seriously. As much as I love tumblr, it is a HUGE distraction. I have the potential to do great things, but because of how distracted I am, my education suffers. 

I want to do so much in life,and if I keep going on this path I won’t have the opportunity. So therefor, I’m going to have my best friend hold my account for me (she’s changing my password so I can’t log on) until exams are over. And then I’ll be back, I swear! With hopefully a bunch of new posts and such :) Please don’t unfollow me):

I love you all, but it’s time to take control of my life and get shit done.

College, here I come.

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itsjustliz:

who cried a river and drowned the whole world….

Anonymous asked: who was the necklace you were talking about from?

It was from my ex a while ago

That memory was literally a year ago too, I just remembered it that day and wrote it out. Im a lot better now haha :)

There’s this guy. He’s tall, handsome, older, mature, hilarious…well he’s exactly what I want in a guy. I don’t know what we are, if we are anything at all, or if I even have a chance. All I know is that he makes me smile the way only you could, and that I’ve finally found someone who could make me believe love exists after love.

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^^that’s who i am in a picture.

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I don’t wish for concrete constant things anymore, beauty is only temporary and so is happiness. I guess thats why we have to love like we’re dying, savoring each and every step we take together because…well each and every second we’re getting older, each and every second marks the oldest we’ve ever been and the youngest we will ever be. Each and every step we take…well it could be our last together.

I don’t wish for little things, and I don’t long for the large things. All I wish for is this moment, right here, by your side, to be the best it could possibly be.

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